Half insane .... and half dead!

I was wondering when will I decide to visit my cave again, and write with my untied senses again .... I was writing with my lost senses somewhere else .... but an Idea is like a virus, it takes time from being injected from the crystalline cover to the mind and to the crystal again to reach another mind .... it was haunting my brain till another MIND told me to write it down .... and I mean MIND, I admit mind is a real man's fortune.

I know I will be opposed by others who were shocked I had different opinion than theirs, but I am sorry my mind was monopolized only by me, and not being someone's ally is translated as being his enemy .... people believed in the false definition of a friend as someone who has the same enemies as mine ... I apologize I don't have enemies but myself .... My genuine enemy is me ... the person I am afraid of meeting after the long journey is me .. which keeps me sleeping to not to start the journey .... I don't want to be an object ... for the story starts from above and ends below ..... just like an hour glass.

It starts with the democratic ruler who is merely a monarch in disguise using simpleton's existence as votes in the elections ... and then he never cares what happens next ... and ends below when simpleton's anger is just used in successive riots ending with a revolution .... Are they still being treated like human beings or are they just being treated like arms and time bombs?

I can't care less .... but all I know is need is eternal but shapeless ..... need is forged as mind is forged ... I can't claim our needs were one but our goal became one .... I'll tell you what we wanted when we had the same anger in 1789 ... Kill the ruler, kill the 8 or 9 years old crown prince Louis-Charles .... kill his wife the Austrian blond Maria Antonia (Antoinette), use people's anger ..... get nobles and the king to pay more taxes than the ruled, destroy the monarchy all to all ... the same man who greeted the king Maximilian Robespierre was the one who dethroned him .. and was killed after being the king of France by the same people he used along with Saint Just .... they only mobilized people to serve their needs .... just like the nobles did while opening their salons for people pretending to be egalitarians ... still people's needs are being used as an object .... no matter how many ruler we will kill ... no matter how many riot we will gather ... still needs are being used as objects.

I will not say pathetic ... I will say Absurd and I won't beg your pardon for saying it ... or I would be the one to deserve the word pathetic.