I just have alot of thoughts, and to come out with other thoughts you have to unblock your mind from an existing idea, or bunch of ideas, that's why am writing that.

I don't believe that history repeats ... but the simplest explanation is getting back to naive stands when we lose track of what we are heading towards ..... we don't actually lose sight or destinations don't get further, we just go sideways as we are tempted by side talks and chit chats we usually listen to when we are mentally exhausted.

there was a story .... a herd of dogs was after the white rabbit ..... and we both know when it's a whole herd the game of influence starts, and it started with the first one losing track of the wite rabbit and taking the side way for a closer target to chase, and so on and so forth ... the one who got the rabbit was the one who strayed from the herd and followed the white rabbit not the herd.

many many many stories to be told about the stray dog and the man who looked outside the cave and decided to take a look outside a conventional frame ..... I made decision about that at a very early age ..... it's not the issue .... It was the courtship, (not as dating), twin minds and soul mates, I thought I can find as many as i can count, they existed, but you know what was funny and pathetic about it? ....... They all live in the parallel universe just like me .... we never intersect despite of the fact we are moving in the same direction, we all started with suffering (as we see it), blamed it on the greatest as we perceive it (divinity), some of us broke all the boundaries, some of us did not ...... we all wanted revolution ..... but worst thing about it is many of us had no reason ... not even the intension to change the world ... they just wanted rebellion, and I can swear they have never known why, because it turned to be a habit, not a mean to a certain objective.

I spent 9 years of watching, analysing, sometimes crticising, sometimes locking myself in my own head separating my mental existance from my physical existance, may be I made myself in the hardest ways ever, and ended up with a courtship with my revelation because as I mentioned we existed ... but each and every one of us is in the parallel universe.

sometimes I believe we are that close to rebellion .... somehow promising, but my greatest fear is what's the objective? .... we have always been led by common objections but not common objectives and alternatives ..... and we have always been self centered by nature, we always think of native and domestic issues .... we don't know that it has always been a universal issue .... human existence ..... we are gradually losing the human .... mental slavery ..... captivating creation .... and again I was made to create ... and my eternity is creation ..... essense .... creation ..... the ongoing cycle.

as usual I want to end it with pathetic but this time it's terribly pathetic we are stuck in rebellion without having a reason or an objective .... and it's just like fire after eating into everything ... it ends up eating into itself .... Pathetic.