eons of frustration

i don't want to sound negative after about 5 months of not even seeing my blog, but 5 months are fair enough to create a different creature in me, a day would make difference in how i think, and what's rebirth but a decision a human makes in moment??? ..... thinking positive when i watch the surroundings is what i failed to do, i can't help but think of it this way, i've seen a real forclosure of all our dreams, i don't like speaking about the government yet i knew the difference between a dictator who rapes the right in contribution in decision making and a place's fate, and a dictator who even rapse your right in talking.
because of the nature of my job i had to speak on behalf of the city council in Nottingham, i have seen the span of contribution in how the city can be, even those who sounded negative are not afraid of saying what they want, even those who are against the labour party are not afraid, even those who are against the government as a whole are not afraid.
on contrary last april there as a strike, so cops were so happy contributing in ruining what's happening by extreme violence, and one month later a very pleasant thing happened, they raised the salary by 30% .....
don't feel that good about it, they raised the price of fuel by even a higher ratio almost 142%, and the continuosly rising prises continue, it affected transportation (150% of actual prices), in addition to continuity in the rising of prices of food, and give it a try and talk or speak of your right .....
sometimes i turn nostalgic but i realize we are no different or may be worse than how we used to be in the monarchy, or actually we are way much worse, pay a visit downtown and watch what have we become? beggers everywhere, overcrowded places, harasment, and whatever you can call .... i have been watching eons of frustration for quiet a while....